As I write this 2018 is drawing quickly to a close and oh what a year it has been: emotionally, healthwise, politically….don’t get me started. As I am writing this from my bed curled up in a fleecy warm throw blanket while three of my four fluffy cats are lounging on the heated blanket I keep at the end of my bed. And I am here ready to start reflecting on what 2018 has been like and what 2019 might bring.
2018 has been filled with so many ups and downs.
Health: I struggled with chronic throat infections for 9 months until I had my tonsils removed in July 2018, which was also my first surgery to date. I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and then Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, my first official autoimmune disease..soo exciting. I started Immunotherapy for my allergies, asthma and chronic bronchitis. I have had two rounds of botox treatments for my chronic migraines which will hopefully reduce my migraines long term.
My IC has been waxing and waning poetic with me all year. After my tonsil surgery, it seemed to go into hiding for a bit…maybe to give me a short break? But the last two months it’s come back with a vengeance and I’m in all the pain and just living the IC dream… which is to say I go to the bathroom 4-5 times a night plus some other stuff, which I’ll spare the details on right now. Am I missing anything?… hmmm I think that’s it… I think that’s more than enough. It’s been a busy year for me and my health!
For 2019, I would like to see more health improvements. I would like the botox and immunotherapy to actually work and show signs of improvement.
Educational: Going to grad school as a chronically ill person is a challenge, to say the least. But I just keep on truckin and now I just have one semester left! Granted it will be the most challenging semester because it will be a full-time internship where I work 32 hours a week (4 days a week) at an internship that is an hour drive from where I live. But going into 2019, I am looking forward to the internship and all that it will bring.
Sleep: There are days I struggle to get out of bed because my whole body is rebelling against me and is screaming in pain. So at some point in the year, I started setting my alarm for 30 minutes before I needed to wake up so I could take some pain meds and/or CBD oil. And then I go back to sleep until my alarm goes off again. By the time I wake up, I am in much less pain. Looking back on this… this was a good choice, I will continue to do this going forward.
Emotional: As you can imagine all of this has had a lot of impact on my emotional well-being. Along with some other family issues that have been going on. I have been struggling with my mental health in 2018. But in 2019, I am really hoping to get a hold on it and this is something I will be talking about more in the weeks to come here on the blog.
Relationships/Family: Relationships of any kind can be beautiful or devastating. I have been so fortunate to have friends and family support me along my journey. My best friends who are always there for me, even if we hardly ever get to see each other for one reason or another #gradschoolife. I have also had the blessing of finding a new family in Aaron’s family this year. His mom, as well as his brother, and sister-in-law plus their 3 kids have really become a beautiful family to me that I never expected.
But I have also had the misfortunate of having devastating losses this past year. Some in the form of deaths in the family and others in the form of bridges being burned… but what I have learned from it… is that no matter what happens, life goes on and there is nothing we can do to stop it.
Love: And, of course, there is Aaron who is right there with me no matter what, even when times are tough. We have a beautiful family together…Me and Aaron, our son, Reid and our four fluffy cats. We don’t have an Instagram perfect life and I don’t really trust people who do…or rather claim to have that. But push come to shove I know we are in it together when things are tough.
Here are a few family pictures we took this year. All of our pictures were taken by the amazing Tiffany of TMGSFotography. She can also be found on Facebook at TMGSFotography, she is local to DC/MD.
Will 2019 be better than 2018? I sure do hope so. 2018 was filled with love and loss…ups and downs. But aren’t most years? I think that every year we hope that the next year is better than the last and it can be easy to forget that each year comes with its own set of challenges. I’m not being pessimistic, this is more realistic actually.
As a chronically ill 30-something who is going into my last (and most challenging) semester of graduate school, it’s easy for me to say that I am going into this new year with a brand new challenge. Am I looking forward to it? sure. Am I nervous and anxious? You bet! I have to earn 500 hours at my internship, from January 3rd to May 6th. So New year here I come! Jumping right into my internship…rolling up my sleeves saying EFF THIS, lets goooo!!!!
Okay, I’ll stop myself here. But I have so much more to say about resolutions and goals related to health. Expect another post soon!
See you all in 2019!